I can't help it but to sort this thing out of my head by penning my tots down...
Da more I tried to pretend, da more I juz got simply failed.
Dis mth.. BONUS is juz topic of da mth... Damn it, I know I'm not expecting it..tks to da last one I didn't get it esp when u know everyone else whom has less calibre than u, got it..n yet u dun!
Mebbe bukan rezki..but still da feeling suxxxxxx big timeeee....
All bcoz my manager hates me so much at dat pt of time...
Nw, da storm btwn me n my manager had eased down. N spring has blossomed btwn us, yet da worry still grows.. Arghhhh!!! I was msn-ing wz one of my kolig earlier n he highlighted dat he oredi received his payslip n had indicated dat der's "extra" to keep a lookout for. I know he meant well, juz to keep me in da loop..but again... I hate him for bringing dat EXTRA cum BONUS subject up again....
Am i juz being insecure? or wat??
Put yrself in my position. I bet u can't help feeling dis way too. U kept telling ppl, "Nah..not expecting it..if der's it, den gd enuff..n if not, I dun heck care abt it"... But F&*# it!!!.. U ownself jolly well know dat u deserve n ought to get it...another words.. U R EXPECTING IT!!!
So da next thing u try to do is to brush da tots away..buttttt da moment u saw somethin nice in da mall, yr stupid heart n desire goes.."Dun worry..u get extra dis mth, u can afford one soon.." Oh my! Dis BONUS is makin me to be a freako paranoid!!
I want da extra coz I think dis time rnd I NEED it due to da fact of da upcoming baby preparations n etc.. Whether or not, I've placed my best input to my work.. dat's secondary issue.
I'm gettin my payslip tmrw..n I pray to god..I got somethin at least... for da sake of my lil boy...
*prayin in silence*
".... this is what that voice in yr head says.. When you try to get peace of mind..."
Lauryn Hill
Tuesday, 24 July 2007
:: Worry overcomes me!!! ::
posted by Da Hot Momma at 7/24/2007 11:25:00 pm
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